Side effects

Stupidity

Why does it feel as though I’m dumber ever since I hit my catalyst in 2013? That’s when I feel as though my bipolar really “kicked in”. My husband left me unexpectedly and without explanation causing a tailspin into a deep depression that lasted for months, 3 of which I could hardly get out of bed. I’ve slowly gotten back into the swing of things but it’s like a roller coaster, with ups and downs-often feeling like more downs than ups but I suppose that’s how it goes. Ever since then, I feel like I’m getting dumber. I miss what I feel should be the obvious. I forget things very quickly. I just feel stupid. People tell me I’m smart and there are things that I’m good at but overall, I just want to respond with “no I’m not. I used to be, but I’m not anymore”. I dont know what the cause is. I wish I did so I could make it stop.