It has been just shy of 3 weeks since I have been in Jacksonville. I don’t have much of an update but didn’t want to let too much time pass. New Year’s was pleasant. We went to a friend’s house, where I spent the evening quietly watching the kids running around with sparklers. It reminded me of my childhood. I haven’t made it to the beach yet, but I am working on it. My friend’s car broke down over a week ago, and transportation has been a little limited. Though, I have been nagging her about that and about cutting my hair. Over the years, I have never done anything bold with my hair. I decided I was going to change that. I can’t release the details until it’s finished, but I am very excited and looking forward to it!
I have decided to stay in Florida for now. I have always wanted to live in Florida. I love the beach; it is now less than a 30-minute drive away. I have also always wanted the chance to move somewhere that no one knows me and I can start over. I am on the perfect path and in the perfect location to do it.
I got some information on a homeless shelter in the area. I am reaching out tomorrow to see what I need to do to get in for an assessment. I want to explore all the options available to me to get back on my feet. I also want to find out what I can do to help people. I have had someone say that I could help other addicts by telling my story. Another said I could help other people who are struggling with mental health issues. I want to look into helping the homeless. I figure I can speak with a case manager about all of these things. The biggest thing I need to focus on right now is me, though. I do not want to get so busy that I forget the most important thing to focus on: me.
I’ve gained some weight, which makes me disgruntled. But, I am clean. I am happy. I am moving forward.